Happened to me 2 days ago!!!!!!!!!!!
Somehow in my mind I knew that a telephone call was coming! My spirit rejected the call from the beginning, but knew that I had to answer. It was my Dr. on the other end and her report was NOT what I wanted to hear. CROHNS! What and ugly word! Makes me almost sick to say it!!!! Granted, it was NOT a "you have cancer" phone call, but still I had so believed that I was going to receive a miracle! Yet, in my spirit God had been preparing me! Why he allows us to walk through trials, sickness, and sometimes even death, I will never understand!
When the call came I became instantly overwhelmed with a feeling of hopelessness! My mind screamed, "HERE I GO AGAIN!!! MY BODY HATES ME!!!! ANOTHER DISEASE IN 30 YEARS TO BATTLE!!!!!! GOD YOU HEALED ME OF ONE AUTOIMMUNE DISEASE, WHY SEND ANOTHER!!!!!!" Then in my moment of sadness, I became angry! Not at God, but at myself!!!!! What had this report really CHANGED in my life? It hadn't! I was still the same as I was 2 days ago! The medicine, although aggravating to remember to take, is working, I have great support from family and friends, my kids are all healthy and happy, my husband loves me, we are blessed beyond measure, and I know a healing GOD!
My mind went to Philippians 4:8 & 9:
8) Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
9) Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace will be with you.
Here I stand!
The God of peace is with me!!!!!!
5 comments:
It's not over yet! What a greater miracle it would be if you baffled the doctors... we'll just be believing for that! I love you & you will be in my prayers continually!
PRAYING for you and remember OUR GOD IS ABLE!!! :) I wish you werent to far to come to our ladies meeting tonight. I could give you a hug! :) I am the speaker! PRAY for me! I am prayin and I am so thankful for your friendship :)
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Tami
Noah's mama
www.tillGodbringsthemhome.blogspot.com
I'm so sorry! There is a memeber at SHS (Chris B.) who has this. Let me know if you'd like her e-mail for questions. Having a chronic illness is so very hard on some days. But you are right - it does not define who you are - a child of God.
Sending you a hug and praying so very hard for you!
It has been so nice catching up with your blog tonight! It brings a smile to my face to see the beautiful pictures of your children! I will be praying for you. Thank you for having a positive Godly attitude about this struggle. It helps me to remember God is in control.
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